Monday, August 3, 2009
Pain is the only way to go.
It's been a long time since my life has dipped into this state of depression.
It's a nightmare.
There's so many things going on I wish I could just break free.
Chemistry lecture test was a total disaster today.
I totally knew how to do almost everything.
I was just darn careless.
My chemistry had always been an A.
Just recently in JC, I haven't been keeping my streak.
I've either flunked due to insufficient practice,
or just because I didn't bother.
Life's not supposed to be this way.
I've been an asshole at home.
I barely talk to my parents.
I quarrel.
I rot.
I realise that whenever I strip myself away from God,
things start to go wrong.
Not like God's punishing me.
He's warning me.
He knows I have to learn the hard way.
I've thought things through.
I'm not going to make this mistake again.
Why endure mockery?
Why put up a facade?
This is not the end.
There's still time.
I can always win in other areas in life.
Who will be the one laughing in the end?
I'm not seeking revenge.
But You'll know it when I'm at the top.
There's no point insulting others to make yourself feel any better.
'Cuz you won't be.
I hope the wake up call today would last forever.
Let me not forget this pain.
I will change. Now.
Khai Jams at 4:51 PM